Breast Cancer Journey – Today I Cried Tears of Joy!

gratitudeThe breast cancer journey is not easy. But today, while sitting quietly in meditation after my yoga class and praying to God for help and healing, I was suddenly overwhelmed with gratitude and joy – and a stream of tears rolled down my cheeks. I have received the most generous help and support, and I was overwhelmed by it.

The prayers and positive thoughts sent from so many of my patients and now my web readers, combined with the excellent care I am receiving from my doctors, is all working. I know this because yesterday the BRCA cancer experts at Stanford Women’s Cancer Center said it is!  For my type of cancer, this response to chemotherapy makes all the difference in my chances. We are fighting and we are doing well!!

It truly takes a village to help support someone who is being treated for or living with cancer – a lovely, generous, and kind village. It takes dedicated and earnest physicians and health care providers, effective advocacy groups, lots of prayers and positive thoughts from the people who know you and care about you, and a circle of family and friends to help pick up the messy emotional and physical parts of the cancer journey. I have the most wonderful and lovely village of support.

In the two months since my diagnosis, I’ve cried many tears of grief, fear, and loss, but today I cried tears of joy! I give my heartfelt gratitude to every one of you in my lovely village. We are fighting these cancerous interlopers and so far we are doing a very amazing job… and I’m speechless and overwhelmed with gratitude. Thank you all so very much.

Blessings and Warm Regards,

Cynthia Bailey MD

Photo: Thanks and gratitude to Julie Jordan Scott

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32 Responses to “Breast Cancer Journey – Today I Cried Tears of Joy!”

  1. Jenny C. October 4, 2013 at 7:41 am #

    Dear Dr. Bailey, I always enjoy your blog posts so much – thank you. I’m sorry I didn’t realize you were dealing with breast cancer. I am so happy to hear everything you are doing to fight it is working! I too trust God, for good times and bad. I will keep you in my prayers. There are so many Bible verses that give me encouragement that I love to meditate on. One I love is Deuteronomy 33:27 “The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.”

  2. Ashley October 4, 2013 at 7:44 am #

    This is wonderful news! I am so pleased. Xo

  3. Fran Cross October 4, 2013 at 7:46 am #

    The very best of wishes to you, Dr. Bailey. How very frustrating to take such good care of yourself, and to be hit with this. I’m glad to hear that you’re responding well to your treatment. Healing, warm thoughts your way, and a virtual hug as well. ~ Fran

  4. Marinell Eva October 4, 2013 at 8:05 am #

    From the first moment your office called, and told me of your diagnosis, I applauded your courage and openness. I have never had the experience of one of my Doctors allowing such openness and vulnerability to enter into the Dr./Patient relationship. You show the courage of your fight, and the courage to allow yourself to be vulnerable. I am deeply indebted to you for modeling these things, and showing those of us who have not walked down this path, how it can be done. Everyone benefits. I felt my own tears today reading your blog. Thank you for such a gift, and know there is another reader, who is solidly behind you.

  5. Liz October 4, 2013 at 9:24 am #

    I found your website last week when I did a search on retin-a use. I loved your site so much that I added myself to your distribution list.
    I was saddened to hear of your diagnosis, Dr. Bailey, but please hang tough!! Sending positive thoughts your way. You will beat it!!

  6. Caroline Laib October 4, 2013 at 9:31 am #

    You are so supported, so loved, so appreciated! We are all on this journey with you!

  7. Suzanne Ellis October 4, 2013 at 10:09 am #

    Dr. Bailey, I, too, did not realize you were dealing with breast cancer! My prayers are definitely with you. You give so much support to your patients and to online “fans”! I am so happy that you received good news! God bless you!

  8. Lynne Carlile October 4, 2013 at 10:20 am #

    I echo the comments from all the above! I am sharing your tears of joy! Attack those cancer interlopers with a vengeance. Lots more of Healing thoughts and prayers are on the way…

  9. Marci Allison October 4, 2013 at 11:21 am #

    Dr. Bailey — we are in your corner sending prayers and healing thoughts. I didn’t realize you were fighting breast cancer until reading this most recent post. Sorry for my delay in posting. Thank you for all of your helpful info and “being there” for us — we are here for YOU!

  10. valetie October 4, 2013 at 12:33 pm #

    How did I miss this? I had no idea that you had been diagnosed with breast cancer. As I pray for all I know battling cancer and any serious illness individually and for all generally,I guess I was praying for you! What good news you received about your treatments. Nothing feels as good as tears of joy
    Much love,
    Valerie Rhodes

  11. Sheri Cardo October 4, 2013 at 4:45 pm #

    Happy and relieved to know you’re doing so well! You are in my thoughts often.

  12. Janette October 4, 2013 at 8:14 pm #

    Dr. Bailey, that’s great news! I think of you every day, and will continue to send warm thoughts of support your way!

  13. MaryCatherine October 5, 2013 at 4:00 am #

    I have learned so much from your website and blogs. Sending light your way for healing and hope.

  14. Christine- 15 Minute Beauty October 5, 2013 at 6:05 am #

    Somehow I missed the post with your diagnosis, I’m so sorry that you’ve been battling this! I’m really happy to hear about your response to chemo, I hope it’s just the beginning of good news!

  15. Cynthia Healy October 5, 2013 at 9:55 am #

    Dear Dr. Bailey,
    The courage you have shown in sharing your experience with your diagnosis and treatment amazes me. You inspire us all to be vigilant about our health, be brave when challenged and keep hope! In spite of the unfortunate circumstance of a genetic predisposition to cancer, breast cancer has the best genomic based diagnostic tools available today, thanks to biotech companies in the personalized medicine space. I served on the board of Genomic Health, which developed Oncotype Dx, allowing a woman and her physician to ensure that she will indeed benefit from chemo. These tools for other cancers are mostly in the development phase so I am glad that you at least know you are going through this difficult time with the knowledge that you will reap the benefits and emerge healthy. I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts.

  16. Maria B. October 6, 2013 at 12:02 am #

    Dear Dr. Bailey,

    I am so glad to know that you are responding so well to treatment!

    I am a devoted and appreciative reader of your blog – I have learned so much from you. Thank you so much.

    I don’t know if you are familiar with the site, but I have found it to be the nutritional equivalent of your site :). It is run by an MD who reports on the latest clinical findings regarding nutrition. I thought if might be interesting to you.

    I am sending you my good thoughts and prayers every day.


  17. Maggie October 6, 2013 at 12:41 pm #

    Oh my…Dr. Bailey, I had no idea that you were dealing with breast cancer. I’m sorry about the diagnosis but I’m very glad that the treatment is promising. I will be keeping an eye on your blog updates for news on this. Best wishes to you.

  18. Cynthia Bailey October 6, 2013 at 3:03 pm #

    Yes I am very familiar with that site and have lived by many of the nutrition facts that I’ve learned there. In fact, here is a post that I did on my admiration for Dr. Greger’s work

  19. Cynthia Bailey October 6, 2013 at 3:11 pm #

    Sheri, Thank you so much for the books!! I finally have the time for fiction. They look like my sort of read and I’ll be starting one of them just as soon as I finish my current novel. You know, chemo is like having my battery taken out; creative battery, initiative battery and stand and do chores battery are all gone for the week after my chemo treatment. This is so new for me. I find that there are days when all I can do is hold up a book. And thank goodness because the distraction takes my focus off how yucky my tummy feels and it’s such a delight to escape into a story.

  20. Carla C. October 6, 2013 at 4:02 pm #

    Dr. Bailey, I have been such a fan of your blog posts. You have helped me immensely with your clear descriptions and explanations of skin care products and regimens and the science behind your recommendations. In fact, it was during a call to your office last week to place an order that I heard of your breast cancer. While we have never met, I feel a special sisterhood with you and was very shaken to hear of your struggle. I’m so glad that you have received some good news in response to your treatments! You are in my prayers…

  21. Maria J October 7, 2013 at 4:54 pm #

    Dr. Bailey,

    I am a fan of your blog, but I too did not know you were dealing with breast cancer. My prayers are with you.

    Thank you for all the wisdom and advice you share.


  22. Anke Wenzel October 8, 2013 at 1:24 pm #

    Dear Dr. Bailey,
    I wish you all the strength and positive energy you needon your straining way to recovery.
    I love your blog & I think I read every single article, so in some way I feel like I owe you so much.
    I ordered some of your products & I am about to pick them up from the customs office .
    All the very best from Munich, Germany.

  23. Nick October 8, 2013 at 7:51 pm #

    Hi Dr. Bailey,

    I am a big fan of your blog. I wish you the best in the battle with breast cancer and I’m sorry you have to be going through this. Stay strong!

  24. Cura Pelle October 20, 2013 at 7:03 pm #

    Dear Dr. Bailey,

    I had no idea. I’m so glad that you have earnest and skilled drs. working with you, and how nice, too, that you have a fund of medical knowledge yourself to count on at this time! It must be a comfort.

    It is true, I have found, that if we are quiet long enough, we can hear the voice of God. It’s not easy to remind ourselves to rely not on our own understanding, but surely as a physician, you have see responses and recoveries that you do not understand. You have a grateful heart and your village is strong, willing to pick up arms for you and to lift you in prayer.

    I’m going to be reading your advice on skincare, gardening, vacationing, sewing, etc. for decades to come, and I am so very excited about that.

    Hugs to you, Dr. Bailey.


  25. Cynthia Bailey October 21, 2013 at 9:26 am #

    Bless you and thank you for your inspiring words, your hugs and your prayers.
    In gratitude,
    Cynthia Bailey MD

  26. Jim Minton November 10, 2013 at 10:26 am #

    Dr. Bailey, you are such a special person! You will continue to be in our thoughts and prayers, and together we will beat this!!

  27. Debbie Nitasaka November 14, 2013 at 8:04 pm #

    Dr. Bailey, You made such a difference in my life when I was dealing with my own cancer scare. You were nothing short of wonderful! Tad and I were just stunned to learn of your current battle. We’re pulling for you in every way & know you have what it takes to beat this thing and enjoy a long and healthy life!

    Happy Trails,
    Debbie & Tad

  28. Sharon Powell November 15, 2013 at 8:05 am #

    Dr. Bailey:

    Just learned of current journey. While I have not met your personally, I have been to your office for facials.

    You are in my prayers and thoughts for healing, peace and ease through all of this.

    Warm Regards,

  29. Mary November 15, 2013 at 10:29 am #

    Dr. Bailey-

    This is the first I have heard of your diagnosis. I came to your site this year just prior to my own diagnosis of stage 2 (BRCA negative) breast cancer. The Power of Three cream helped me enormously with the very dry skin that can occur during chemo.

    I have made it through 5 months of chemo, surgery, and am now completing 6 weeks of daily radiation (now that does a number on your skin!). I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. It is a stunning and life changing diagnosis…but you will prevail.


  30. Cynthia Bailey November 15, 2013 at 11:08 am #

    Hello Mary,
    There are just too many of we kindred spirits having our lives stunningly changed by this diagnosis. Congratulations on being so far along in the process. I too will keep you in my thoughts. And, thank you so much for telling me how well the Green Tea Cream worked for your chemo skin issues. For me it’s the key to keeping my facial skin hydrated and comfortable. I top it with my All Natural Butter, which is my other key skin care savior during this physical challenge that comes with chemo.

  31. Ina B. Stess November 23, 2013 at 2:30 pm #

    For the last 10 years I have had bladder,lung & breast cancer . During that time I have had 10 surgerys. You have been my Dermatologist thru all of that. I have always been a very strong woman and have not only survived but thrived. You always remined me of a younger version of myself so i have no doubt that you also will survive and thrive. Remember that the Chemo will pass and you will be strong again. Just let yourself be lazy and rest and don’t push yourself. We were always dieting so if you lose weight look at it as a plus. I was the only person I knew who gained weight on chemo. It must have been the grilled cheese sandwiches I ate to get rid of the nausia. I’m sending you all my good thoughts and look forward to seeing you back in the office with your great dog. Fondly and with all my love. Ina Stess

  32. Cynthia Bailey November 24, 2013 at 8:52 am #

    Ina, you put a smile on my face with the grilled cheese. I have a friend who got through chemo and a bone marrow transplant on grilled cheese sandwiches too. I’m hanging in there actually. I’ve even lost a little weight, which I don’t mind. It’s probably because I walk at least 45 minutes every single day, as prescribed by my oncologist. I go no matter what, but with a buddy just in case I overdo myself because I have absolutely no reserve and have given myself a freight or two. Funny, but most breast cancer chemo patients gain weight – must be the grilled cheese and crackers to settle the tummy. My tummy hurt so badly on the AC that I had to eat my meals in small bits over the day. I felt better if I kept the food steadily coming. That drug combo is like digestive tract Drano. I’m on Taxol now and it is better.

    I sooo miss my practice and really look forward to resuming life as normal – one last chemo to go then my first surgery after the first of the year. Fingers crossed…. Thanks for your words kind of encouragement, they are a treat on this lovely fall Sunday morning.